Wordless Wednesday exception

I think you'll understand the expection of my words on "wordless wednesday".  If anyone follows me on facebook you'll understand the depth these pictures this morning.  But here's is an update from my facebook note:

Okay everyone! We need you prayer warriors. Here's the update about what is going on. I know my sister and her husband will appreciate any prayer you can lift up on their behalf. Baby Katie, my neice, is very seriously ill right now. Annie took her to the doctor this morning because she had a gut feeling something was wrong with Katie. She said she just wasn't acting right. The doctor immediately had her transferred to CHOC hospital. They did a brain scan and found several masses on her brain. They have since done a brain biopsy where they found 5 open, infected absesses on her brain which are producing huge amounts of puss. They removed a cup of puss from her brain and she is scheduled for brain surgery tomorrow where they are going to remove the absesses and the puss. The problem right now is that they are completely baffled as to what the infection is and where it came from and why she has it. There is an infectious disease specialist there asking a ton of questions. She is completely baffled how a 2 month old has this amount of infection in her brain and isn't seizing or even having a fever. So please pray for Katie for Annie and her husband. Pray for the surgeons and for the lab techs to have wisdom to get the answers they didnt as soon as possible. I keep telling myself that God is still on the throne and He's bigger than this! Thanks guys for all your thoughts and prayers! I will keep you all posted as I hear any news. Please keep in mind tomorrow for Katies surgery. I dont know an exact time but God does! Thanks and God Bless!

Since I wrote that yesterday evening there have been some changes.  Not good ones.  They got the MRI results back and the abcesses are the biggest they've seen on a 2 month old.  They are not sure if the surgery will work because of the size of abcesses they cant be sure that her whole brain isn't infected.  They wont know until they get in there.  They kept her asleep all night in case the abcesses grew at all they would rush her into surgery.  Thankfully she made it through the night. 

Today is a different story.

I was awoken this morning with a text from my Dad to get on my knees and pray for healing.  There was no new news but his spirit was stirred to pray and so I did.  And I had been off and on all night long.  But I went to my knees and pleaded and petioned to the Lord like I never have before.  "Can we see your glory in that hospital and still keep Katie? Can we praise Your name and still hold her?"  I was led to a verse in Mark chapter 9 verse 23, Jesus said "If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes".  I believe!!! I dont doubt with one ounce of my being that my Jesus can cast a passing glance upon sweet Katie and she would be instantly healed.  But what if the Lords will isn't to heal her?  Will I still believe?  I am so overcome with emotion.  I don't know who to handle pain like this.  This is beyond anything I've even dealed with, ever in my 32 years.  But God is still on the throne.  Jesus still reigns.  And in my pain, through my tears that's all I have. 

I didn't think it was possible to physically ache in pain or cry and sob so loud that used a towel to quiet them for my sisters grief.  She is beyond grieving and I dont know who else to help her but to pray and cry for her.  This is the valley of the shadow of death....I have a new understanding now. 

He still reigns,